Sponge

Wrote this about 3 months ago but just realised I didn’t post it. Doing so now. Now need to think about whether or not it still holds true…

I’m finding it odd that the more work I do on myself the less energy I have for those with excess anger, stress and/or without the ability to just let things go.
After yoga class today, feeling all peaceful and happy I went for tea with someone I would categorise somewhere between an acquaintance and a friend. He is so angry. and aggressive. Even the way he ordered his espresso was condescending. Within 30 seconds of him interacting with the world around us I could physically feel my chest tighten. My muscles actually registered the stress I was feeling. As he spoke, I tried very hard to listen, empathise, but as present as I tried to be I couldn’t help simultaneously talking to myself, encouraging my breath to normalise and my muscles to relax.
It seems to me that the more peaceful and centred I become the more space I should have available to hold other people’s sh*t, but I don’t.

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